SATC.

watched sex and the city last nyt. it is GREAT! omg, seriously. it made me cry, laugh, aww-ed, eww-ed and not forgetting totally admiring carrie bradshaw's life. im not gona put in any spoilers in here coz it just suck how much the trailer had given away. but nevertheless, the movie still has ALOT that has not been showed in the trailer. fyi, jennifer hudson starred in it. and may i say, that she is just an amazinggg actress. i think shes gona be my new singer-come-actress. well, more lyk a nobody come singer come actress. bleargh.

and tonight im gona get on the 1am flight to perth with, get this, my 3 eldest nephews; illy,izzy and immy, not forgetting my parents. i wonder if my dad will let me drive there. teehee. perth is so blahh to me now. coz there was one period in my life wen my bros were studying there and wen my parents managed Fish&co Australia, i used to go there lyk once a mth for very long periods. lyk 2wks the max. so if perth hasnt changed since the last time ive been, prolly gona be bored then. but still, shopping is possible so i soooo am gona shop! been saving in sg and im so gona slurge in au.

see u soon yeah, in 6 days? tt is if im sooo in the blogger mood. haha.

take care lovey doveyss.

delayed birthday celebration.

so on friday nyt we had zie's birthday celebration and damn was it a whole much of FUN FUN FUN!

1st, 19 balloons for her 19th bdae; together with 3 muffins of coz. hah.

then we're off to mount faber for dinner at The Jewel Box. the food was fucken overpriced lyk those they charge in hotels! one coke, non-refillable cost $7.40 PLUS it was in lyk a wine glass. bloody hell. i was scurrying through my wallet to make sure we had enuff money to treat zie! in the end, seri had nachos which was lyk, 14bux. hahaha. thanks serii. for saving us from embarrassment. huahua. birthday girl ate salmon which was superduperfantastic.

the we're off to clarke quay for zie to go get her MOCKTAIL. nak sangattt. we decided on KandiBar near MOS. the mocktails was super duper yummy. i had the virgin margarita, frozen.
swear tog od i'd haf it again! seri's n zie's tasted EWWWW to me. but they liked it so everyone was happy. :)

since seri had to be back by lyk 10 and it was almost 1030,we headed home. then after, i met my shrullie. so friday was a good day. better than others definitely.


oh, and fyi, i'm gona pursue my degree in SIM. fucken nus, ntu and smu rejected me. how sad eh? i tot a CCD was good enuff. guess not. but at least im studying sth i like.
yeah yeah, im still comforting myself.

prolly will opt for london in the 3rd yr? OH YESSS! then all my dreams will come true. weeee~ :D

dick shit.

i fucken hate it.
i fuckin cant stand it anymore.
i haf not felt lyk this since the last time, nono not last time, since the last 400000 times.
fuck it.

all i noe is, i haf a job, my mom and dad's not angry with me, i dont owe anyone any fuckin money, n i dun sneak in my 'ex' to my hse. fuck.

gosh pls, its been a gazillion years. pls put some sense into those retards mofos.

alryt ppl, NOW i feel lyk blogging. n shuddup seri.

i was sposed to haf a great night tonite, as in weds nyt out clubbin wit zie and the rest all. but it turned out, otherwise. zie didnt haf the mood to go which made me kinda lazy to go too coz i had a nap at lyk 6pm ryt aft watching love actually. fyi, fucken awesome movie, i love it. den my sister had to call me and 'force' me to prepare the table for shabu shabu aka japanese steamboat. to all of u who dun alr know, i hate it wen someone disturbs my slp. i'll tend to get moody for the rest of the night. serious.

but at the end of it all, dinner was great. ive always liked putting in all those food in the 'boat'. haha. so extremely full aft tt.

then sth happened. sth tt totally made me switch my mood back. i guess lately i haf been having some family problems but im just not the kind to open up to ppl wen its regarding that area. anw, they usually are so ridiculous and ignore-able so i'd just always put it at the back of my mind coz those stuff are lyk 'adult' problems. but now, its catching up to me. somehow or rather, now im involved. be it helping the person in the problem or being there for my mom. *SIGH* it just makes me feel so low thinking about it.

but this wasnt it. another ting happened. u noe how on frenster u can see who views u and stuff. i saw a certain someone viewing me. and immediately, i got all paranoid abt shahrul. i know its reali2 bad to invade into oth ppl's privacy and stuff but since shahrul n me are in a reali stable relationship ryt now, it shdnt matter ryt? so i did a little spying and i did not lyk wat i saw. i didnt feel angry, not jealous. not even close to even hating her. i juust felt sad. im so over getting to know oth guys and shitz lyk tt coz im happy with him. wat i feel for him, the immensity of love; its just no words can explain tt.

i always thought to myself, love usually has lyk a timeline. first u start with the itsy bitsy crush, hoping u see him lyk everyday or haf any contact watsoever. then its the deep infatuation wer u tink ure in love but ure actually not. right after is wat u call the honeymoon period wer ppl arnd u just havent adapt to the whole 'relationship'. then long enough, everybody are used to u and him being a couple. and its all steady after tt. usually, at the 1 yr mark, or maybe close to it, starts the 'i wana be single again' phase. if u get thru that safely, with no vengeance, regrets hopefully u'll make it thru the relationship. forever, maybe not. but long enough till both of u noe whether or not u shd be together and tt ure happy.

ryt now, i feel the fear tt that phase may be coming. no, not to me. but maybe to him? i see him only on weekends wer its usually more of just trying to mix family and friends in it too that we're left with little time for just us. i fear that karma is working against me because of my past. i just hope tt wen we both haf our own time, we can talk this thru, and he will see me lyk how he does before his NS to be specific.


*hoping tt friday out with u guys will cheer me up. (:

coz we're driving throught route 64.

yes sery. i haf gotten myself a car.

:)

and i am missing my shahrul nizam oh-so-very-much. weds hopefully is another ladies nyt with the girls. gona go with zie but duno weder fatz and ain and ifah is going. hopefully they are. if not den no harm if its just de 2 of us.

im getting boringgg. will update as soon as i get my blogging mood back. which is, not now.

to go or not to go.

hmmm. its 830 now and tonight's ain's celebration at mos. theme is gypsy queens and kings. so cute ryt. hshaha. ting is, if i go, i'll be goin alone as in im de outsider in their normal gang unoe? de oth time seri was there so it wasnt weird or anything. but tonight its just me with ain, fatz, marissa, hana, shar, zhafey and wah? i think? so hmm. nvms. i'll just do this one. im gona be bored at home anw so might as well. new experience for the new me. yah ryt.

got my REJECTION letter from smu today. BAHH. its finally all coming back to me. all the 'IF- ONLY's. :( for once, i did not get the outcome i wanted. heck, smu was my dream uni. but i didnt work hard enuf for the freakin dream. so ryt now ppl, im seriously hoping i got into SIM business. hopefully if i do, im gona opt for the last yr in London. pls pls pls let this happen.

now, im just gona wait for fatz to sms me so tt ic an bathe and get ready. oh pls let this night be FUN!

Counting crows.

omg, its gona be 8 more days till the BIG BIG HUUUUUGEEEEE day! damn am i gona be so excited! as de 8 days pass, so u guys shall wait wat im sooo excited about. :)

im back. :)

so after erm, 3 days? im back again blogging.
the reason for the sudden MIA is coz my dearest boyfie/shrullie is back! sooo reaaali did miss him but i dun timnk de time was well spent coz i had tuition last nyt n coz my mom had her surgery yest too soooo, it wasnt an "US" moment. but nevertheless, im satisfied!

so latest goss is that, indeed nick cannon n MC are married..! check out the cover of people below.


OMG! hahaha. but i hafta say tt i haf always found nick cannon rather, charming. he's always had tt 'nigga' attitude in him. but still, look lyk a mouse doesnt he? OHHH ANDDD u guy so hafta watch de new vid. can see some snippets of those two cuddling n stuff.

now, ppl hu are close wud noe tt ive always wanted to cut my hair lyk rihanna's. BUT, those same ppl keep telling me tt i shdnt, incl my hair stylist. now sinc ei haf a blog i can show u how i'd wana cut my hair.



i guess its a little small? oh but u cuys get my drift ryt? i soo wan2 do it lyk ryt now. but den im still contemplating. oh man. ok cya soon ppl.

n shrul's sad coz we're not goin port dickson to catch tiesto live. damnit. nvms, mother's day is def MORE impt. wat big wimps we are! fuuggit.

'change'.

i just read de latest issue of TIME abt de 100 most influential ppl in the world and here are some names i tot was well, deserving to say the least.

Dalai Lama. omg, his name has been on the buzz since say, 2 yrs ago? n i was quite surprised tt he managed to get his point across the year China's having their olympics. good strategy there. but poor thing to all those torch lighters tt got pushed, punched, kicked, slapped and other forms of physical violence, just so that Tibet will be peaceful. Good job on being a 72-year-old who uses Youtube to 'educate' the public. hey, even Richard Gere's supporting him. so i say jolly good for him!

next one is Barack Obama. my father has been watching FoxNews on who knows how many televisions we haf in the house. during dinner just now, he insisted tt de tv remained ON just so tt he cud listen to wat was de latest on the whole hoopla about Rev Jeremiah Wright [who is actually Obama's pastor since he was a child] passing racial discrimination remarks and the 9/11. from being indifferent about the US politics, i've got to noe a little of it just frm eating dinner at home. :)

this next one is a surprise. Miley Cyrus aka Hannah Montana. haha. just a few hours ago i was reading TRENT n he showed photos abt her Vanity Affair photo shoot slip-up [whilst her father was there, if i may add]. ok maybe the Myspace photos did kinda tarnish her image as being the "Tween Idol" but still, its he r MySpace photos for goodness sake. gotta gif her some privacy y'all.

AND ANDDD MAriah Carey made it too. oh and can i just anoounce it here in my blog tt she is lyk officially married to Nick Cannon, or so says TRENT. i cant fucken believe it. Nick Cannon? he's hot stuff, no offence, but with the diva Mariah Carey?? i think hes not gona be getting anything going his way even on the bed. rumours are tt she's rather erm, demanding in bed? ah but wth. so back to it. MC has gotten lyk 15 no. 1 on the billboards? isit? but i noe Beatles no longer has the most. so congrats to her.

there are many other names but i cant prolly go thru all of it. Robert Downey Jr got in too coz of his rold in Ironman which i must add was superduperfantastic! 6 thumbs up and 2 stars! or was tt spose to be 2 thumbs up and 6 stars? hah. George Bush was in to but i duno wat de hell for. some guys who stopped the stem cells debate. Anwar Ibrahim, woot, someone form this side of the world. andd.. Herbie Hancock? for winning the Grammy for album of the year.

so tts all abt those influential ppl.

just a little heads up coz i always look forward to the issue every yr! oh n fyi, im meeting shahrull tmr. YAYYY to me. gnite u ppl.

Let's waste time chasing cars.

this week has been great! prolly coz it constitutes frens, driving AND clubbing. hahaa. so today was my turn to drive; wer seri and zie met up with me at my hse. decided to go orchard and AWAYYY we go.

i just had to go mandarin hotel for valet parking coz there is no way im gona park at ngee annc ity by myself, without my mom. went to eat at hard rock cafe wer i ate the black pepper steak all to myself. HAHA. was fucken hungry; didnt eat the whole day[well i ate cookie crisps but just a handful]. den aft tt planned to go dempsey but i didnt noe de way to go therre! plus, seri had to be home by lyk 1130? so we just walked arnd at orchard.

got myself a topshop blouse with frills on it at 20% off coz of some MAY DAY promotion or watnots. so anyhoo, de whole tuition thing is getting to me. i haf lyk 2 tuitions tmr; 1 at 1pm another at 6pm, both at tamp. totally gona save up! for wat? havent tot abt tt. but i just miss seeing those didgits on my account balance 2 yrs back. le sighhh.

ok now, photooss!

hah. love that hat on u missy!

oh ya, i need to say tt NS 'men' in camp or confined for lyk days tend to get moody and overprotective. is tekong reali lyk jail? le sigh. shahrul pls come back so tt u can be shrullie and not shah. told u shah is not a good name for u. its so indian muslim; not that its bad. just not u. ure more irritating and totally 'me against the world' kind. I MISS YOU. :(

It will all get better in time.

so, today was dreadful with me having to go all the way to jurong east to get my new polaroid camera! and also to pass my 'customer' the stuff she wants from my blog. but being lazy ol` me, i negotiated with her and thankgod, she was goin to dhoby ghaut at 630 so i'll mit her there instead.

thot of takin the train but played rockband till i realise it was alr 6 so i 'just had to' take a cab. :p
cab fare costs a bomb lyk $18, n i act HAD to take a cab to tamp coz tuition starts at 730 n it was alr 7. smart arent i? so as a whole, cab fare was lyk 40bux???? fucken hell, cud haf got myself 2 charles&keith shoes! perhaps, charles&keith isnt so cheap anymore. then, erm, get the shorts i want from topshop. watever it is i hate how cabs are charging an extra 35% of the total cab fare during peak hours. its lyk, wth is their motive? haf to cover additional costs of wat? ERP? na-ah, customers pay for tt. petrol, hmmm perhaps but still not as much as 35%! one cab driver told me that Comfort only pays $190 rebate every 3 mths. sad isnt it? guess a LARGE proportion of the cabfare goes to their pockets instead of the drivers. BLEARGH.

so on a happier note, my dearest frens seri n zie decided to join me for dinner aft tuition. BUT, somebody had to cancel; SERI RAHAYU. grounded coz of our wed escapade to mos. poor thing u! its ok. tmr we'll mit yah?

zie n i decided to go burger king drive thru at east coast; since she can drive!.. got our food n den we parked the car so tt we cud go n sit by the sea to just chill. the stars were surprisingly beautiful. well stars ARE beautiful. wat i meant was tt there were more than usual. n de moon was nice too. it was such a romantic setting for couples but im fine with zie. so, photos below once we finished our food. [its a moment OKAYY! photos is a mUST!]






xoxo.
imysm shahrul nizam. MONDAY COME QUICK!

Flashing lights.

so weds 30/4/08 was girls' night out for me.
too bad zie backed out last minute; wud totally haf been FUN-er.
so now, PICTURES GALORE. :)
















so, seri and i got ready at my hse first. she bothered to come early to curl her 'naturally curly hair but is now rebonded' with my curler. until zie called to say shes not goin coz no cabs found at raffles city n shes werkin at 12 tmr. BOO! but good news, shrul's fren, jia yee, called to say tt shes gona join me at MOS so its not gona be THAT bad after all.

we reached n met ifah at the superduper long queue. ifah looks so cute with the denim vest; DO NOT LOOK UR AGE!.. so afterwards she went to meet her oth frens while seri n i got drinks n sat at the 2nd floor. it was only lyk, 1230? and yet ppl were dancing lyk they were drunk or sth, or perhaps, they just dance lyk tt? soon after, met jia yee and fatz, ain, marissa wer we all had fun. next time pls ain n fatz, we gotta do some catching up. miss u guys truckloads.

im off to dhoby ghaut to pass the stuff to a customer, n fyi, i got myself a vintage polaroid camera. so fucken cool. i fell in love with it wen i saw it. den after, tuition at tamp wer me n seri n zie will reunite for some starbux agn? zie pls drive ur car! i feel hopeless for passing my driving test wen i cant drive alone. damnit. take care my fellow readers which i tink shd just be ifah and ooze. haha. shall spread the werd.

p.s. ifah dun tell fifi u lyk him. :)