never in my life have i thought for one second tt i'm cheap. i just hate that word. fuck, i haf morals and i can differentiate wats right and wats wrong. if i cudnt i would just be the same like those 2. so y is it that i didnt even make a fucking mistake and yet ure calling me cheap? ppl always make mistakes in their decisions- u weigh the pros and cons, and yet, it stills goes down the drain. im willing to risk myself to prove to u that this is a mistake. this will be the only mistake i did. and when u realise it, im gona say that i did because u asked me to.

dont ever judge ppl before u know them, before u even meet them. seriously. and pls, one's a cheater always a cheater. sure id idnt stay around long enuff to noe weder tt statement is true but fuck, i dont think i can ever risk my heart ever again.

infallible.

everything's so dark n gloomy that i figured its time i uploaded MY VIDEOS! hahaha. so i just uploaded videos from all the concerts ive been to. theres so many! coldplay, kanye, rihanna and even panic at the disco! hahaha.

anyways, i do need to say that i appreciate the frens i have a whole lot. zie, hid and ooze u guys had a really good talk wit me. i guess i should change the way i think and face my probs but thing is, not everyone's the same. i'm taking a break from everything and just spending time wit my mom ryt now. mommy time is always the best. :)

now videos to shareeeee!





i'll upload videos from concerts next post coz its taking a really long time. hmmm.

-_-

i think im now on my crossroads.

2 choices, well maybe 3. a wise man told me that even though i'm listening to so many ppl's advice. i should really, just listen to one. and that person would be the one i trust the most. only coz most of the advice she gave seems to be of benefit to me. hah.

after this whole hoo-hah it's like more or less my first 'adult' problem. i've learnt who the good ppl in life are like. and who the bad ones are. who ur true frens are, and who's there ONLY for the good times. who knew how mnay shit ppl there are out there.

sometimes i feel like parents always seem to think they noe whats best for their children but in actual fact, they just don't. it's like i wan2 tell my mom to just stop protecting me. tell my family not to care. so i can learn the hard way. i wan2 experience it myself. the heartbreak. the confusion. all the things that does not include happiness. i cant always have them to guide me. i need to learn it myself. like seriously. and puhlease, to associate me with drugs is just seriously stupid. beyond stupid la really.

so now i'm gona try to stand with my own two feet. trust my mom's advice. put a 100% to it and just hope for the best. if i'm just going against fate then at least i noe i tried. who know, i might eventually be with my soulmate. my one and only soulmate out there. but then again, u dont always end up with ur soulmate do u?