They're all just brands and nothing else, right?

I've been having a lot of time in my hands for the last couple of months and i just couldn't avoid the fact that i've become more and more of an impulsive shopper. Well, impulsive in those normal stores lyk f21,topshop, black clover and such. But those other brands, those high-end brands. LUXURY brands they call it. Which is actually meant for those ppl living the luxurious life; as Forbes has stated. The thing is, at this age - well at my age that is, i don't think i should be desiring these superduper expensive materials.

Like for example, i went out with my mom just a few days ago and i went in OnPedder. Fell in love with the Giuseppe Zannotti famous fishbone heels. Made famous by Samantha of Sex and the City of course[soon after by VickiB and duh, Paris.] What more, it has the same price as the MiuMiu bag I've wished my mom gave me since lyk 2yrs ago. This can't happen. I haven't even have a job that has a high enough salary that could allow me to enjoy these 'oh-so-lovely' things. What if i get too comfortable in this life? Though it is no luxurious life, but you get my drift. I can't go on wanting something that even my mom wants. She, by all means have the rights to want it since hell, i've known how much she's been through. But me? I haven't even got my degree. Or a job that pays more than 1k a month. I seriously need to do some soul searching.

In addition, sometimes i wonder what if i'm not as lucky as my mom. She had my dad to work and be the soe breadwinner of the family and he did it well. What if i didn't meet my father as a husband. NOT THAT I WANT MY FATHER AS A HUSBAND! More like the financial security. I don't want to doubt any man that they won't be able to provide for a family. But will it be enough? See, this is why i'm seriously going to start to bring my feet back to the ground. Who knows how high it went. ARGH.


*whatever it is, i'm thankful for the life i have. i really am. i just need to make sure i don't go over that thin line of being materialistic. or superficial. i just want to be grateful.