death.

death is surrounding us everyday. and its sad, but sometimes it does bring out the optimistic side of me. it just saddens me to hear about a boy, who's only in his teens, end his life because of the lack of affection, love. death is scary. scary when u noe u've committed sins and ure not ready for the afterlife. i hear so many stories of killing, of suicide. it's just all jumbled up into one and at this very moment i'm just really really feeling low. like all the whatifs starts to come up and all u want to do is to know that life is no longer unpredictable.

have u guys heard of phil spector? i was reading TMZ and am just truly amazed a person like him even exist in the world. thank god he lives in the US or i'll be damned if i was an aspiring musician. i read tnp just now and they said he actually locked the ramones in the studio for 8 hours at gunpoint and force out a hit song out of them. also, he had a glass coffin in his house and told his ex-wife if she ever left him, that her body would end up in that coffin. psycho man this guy. oh and his face looks just as psycho as he is. blearghhh.

so after awhile, these past few weeks have been more of studying and poker. as sad as tt may sound, i actually feel contented. i dont need no drama in my life. ;)
i'm completellyyyy fine with the way things turn out. i dont even want to try to change anything. and fyi, im happy with the friends i have; my true friends. [it's okay shrul, u can share frens with me!hahaha.]